Live life from the end

I imagine my 85th birthday. Who is there, where it is at and what is being said. My family and friends are talking about me, I imagine what they say. I also imagine my funeral. What is said, who is there. I really try to experience these events in my mind. It is the end of my life and I know what people are going to say about me. Like watching the last 5 minutes of a movie, I know how it is going to end. Now all I do is follow the script to get the end of my movie.